Tuesday, September 22, 2015

nukilan pertama 2015

Assalamualaikum wbt,

firstly rasa bersyukur sangat sebab tak post things yang jadi sepanjang 9 bulan tahun ni. at least, takde la ingat sangat dengan apa yang jadi. anyway, i would like to make some confession. to be honest, sekarang ni rasa teramat la kecewa dengan insan yang pernah bersama aku sepanjang 4 tahun ni. well, we officially end it on 3th september 2015. he wanted it. he left me. the reason, he hates me. and i dont know why exactly.

if you read this, i dont want ever to see you again. there's no more chances for you. i gave u enough and you took me for granted. you took everybody for granted. i forgive u but i wont forget your last words. i fee bad for myself for letting you in my life before, when i could better by my own. frankly, i dont trust you anymore. i tried to think something good about you, but i couldnt, i dont hate you, i just cant accept you as anything not even a friend. i've been really nice to you. damn nice. instead you hurting me like i dont have any feelings.

feel free to see my mom or to discuss things with her. but leave me the hell alone. i will not be part of it. as right now, i dont want to see your face anywhere. how on earth i could stand with someone like yourself ?

you were the only person who betrayed me, lied to me, cheated behind me, stabbed me, hurt me, pushed me away, threw me away, left me and let me be own my own with depression and anxiety disorder. you did every mean things to me. semua yang perempuan takut pasangan dia buat. and you did everything to me. you never appreciated me for who i am. those other girls were perfect for you. but not me. i will never be the one for you. i will never fulfill want you want, cos im just pathetic me.

and to you, dont bother to say that you know me. i had enough of you. and im letting the world to know what you have done to me.

i am glad that we are no longer in touch, and i dont have to see you anywhere i go. not even in facebook, twitter and instagram, and really thank you for blocking me on your instagram, you dont exist in my life anymore.

i dont want to see you now, tomorrow, in future and forever,

cinta mati, selamanya tuk kau,

saya heart awak

Monday, November 10, 2014

the driveway

After 12, not so well
Won't pretend, it's too soon to tell
What's round this bend?
No disgrace, about face
Anything not to have to chase you down again
You know nothing hurts like loosing
When you know it's really gone
Except for the pain of choosing
To hold too long

I tried it your way
But I got nothing to show
It's been the same, same
And the story's getting old
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road
For us it's too late
Let the credits start to roll

A lot to say
But not today
Let the radio break the silence
As we drive
A kiss goodbye
Not this time
Don't remember what about this song
I ever liked
You know nothing hurts like loosing
When you know I'm already gone
Except for the pain of choosing
To hold too long

I thought maybe we were getting somewhere
But we're still nowhere at all
I watched your tail lights fading
I try but it still won't fall
I remember what it feels like to know love
And have it taken away
Can't think of what I've learned right now
But I'll be thanking you someday

Let the credits start to roll
So I guess the driveway
Will be the end of the road,
End of the road

saya heart awak